Confession

Well I orginally reported my weight on here at 295, well I was wrong. Way wrong :( I guess my scale only goes that high. Come to find out after seeing my doctor and weighing in at the gym three weeks ago my real start weight was 310lbs!!!! I was so embarressed by it I couldn't get myself to record it. Of course I think it is important that you all know the truth, besides I want you to be able to celebrate in my success.

Well today was my second weigh in at the doctors and at the gym. I haven't really seen any weightloss, but the scale doesn't lie. I am down to 291lbs. That is a weightloss of 19lbs!!!!! What a great accomplishment for me.

I did tell my trainer I was a little discouraged because I can't see any weightloss, but he is a great encouragement. He reminded me that 3 weeks ago I was laboring through workouts and doing so much less. Now I am doing things I haven't done in years. So instead of being annoyed at not seeing more physical results I am proud of seeing what I can do now that I didn't do yesterday.

Of course my biggest reward is the kids. They have told me they like the new mom better because I am willing to do more things with them.

So now I made my confession to you all and I feel so much better. Thaks for your support and encouragment.

Quick dinner

I had a few friends ask me about some quick healthy dnners. So I thought I would post one of my all time favorite's.

I call it veggie fajitas:

Any and all fresh or frozen veggies you like. I usually do bell peppers, onion, zucchini, broccoli, and sliced carrots. In a pan satue veggies in 1 teaspoon of extra virgin olive oil and Mrs. Dash spicy seasoning. When veggies are at the tenderness you like dd two slices of reduced fat pepper jack cheese. Once melts place in warmed whole wheat tortilla.

I had this tonight for dinner and it was so good and only 300 calories! BTW I usually make 2 at a time and that is 300 calories. So you will get filled up.

Enjoy!

Just get back up!

So I was doing so well with what I was eating and my exercise and then I decided to order the kids pizza! Yes pizza. The oh so not good for you pizza. The day before I had gone to CPK and got a spinach articoke pizza and was good and only ate 2 slices, but then Sunday I ate 3 of Dominos slices. That is horrible. I was so upset with myself. I didn't even enjoy it (especially after having yummy CPK the night before). But that is okay because I refused to beat myself up about it.

A month or so ago I would have got really upset and just continued making back food choices, but not this time. This time I got myself up and kept on trucking. We are going to have set backs, but the thing about set backs as long as we learn from them and don't continue on with them then we will be okay. So that is what I did. I ate healthy all day and did an extra long workout at the gym. So now I feel great.

So when you feel like you have failed remember to just get back up. I was always told you had to fail first to really know how to succeed!

Loving me (very raw & personal)

It took me a long time to understand some things. Mainly that I would never be happy and be where I want to be unless I love myself. I know people say this all the time, and I always thought I loved myself, but then I really started thinking about this. Do I love myself? If I love myself why do I do the things that I do?

Well I can say I went through periods of time in my life where I didn't love myself anymore. Where I thought I did, but truely I didn't. I had the stage in my life where I partied, drank, and unfortunatly slept with men I shouldn't have. Obviously I didn't love myself. I did these things because I wasn't happy with myself and didn't love me.

There was also a time in my life (more recently) that I ate to be happy. How dumb is that? I didn't like myself and didn't want to admit to myself that I was eating for all the wrong reasons. I stopped working out and let myself go. Plain and simple I got FAT. I hate being fat, but I let myself get this way because I didn't love myself the way I should.

Now I have decided I am worth loving, and I do love myself. I am truely blessed and I am so happy with myself. I see physical and mental changes in myself all the time, and I love it. I am taking myself back and loving myself more and more everyday.

Family Fun Time

I am really enjoying working out at the gym, but I am also trying to figure out how to get the kids move active with me when they are home. This week is our spring break and I will have them with me all day everyday. So I need to find fun things that we can do together that are active.

So far we are planning our walks and the kids will be riding their bikes or scooters while I push my littlest one in his stroller. That way I can still get out and about with my walking buddies. I try to walk everywhere with the kids. Of course I would like more active things to do too. Any thoughts?

I am glad my kids are enjoying the walks we are doing. They all have been so supportive of me, and they are so young. I am lucky to have these three in my life.

One Step At A Time

So I have been working out pretty regularly since my husband left for Afghanistan. The elliptical machine is my best bud and I can stay on it for hours. I know some people struggle with it, but I love it and I get a great workout and feel great. Sure my legs feel weird after I step off, but all in all I feel great.

Well today I tried something new. The stair climber. I am used to the old fashioned stair stepper, but now they have these machines that look like stairs. So I get on it. Man is it harder then I thought. I put in for 15 minutes, but I will confess I only made it to 6 minutes. It was much harder then I thought. BUT I tried something new.

I think it is important to try new things when you are working out so you don't get bored and you don't quite so easily. So now I plan on hitting that stair machine each and every time I go to the gym. I figure each time I will go for longer and soon my butt will be where it is supposed to be, one step at a time.

So I challenge you to get moving and to try something new. My next new adventure will be Zumba.

Pushing through the soreness

I am loving the gym and my personal trainer. Of course it has left me a little sore. My trainer is working muscle groups I haven't used in years. It feels so good, but boy am I sore too. It would be so easy to just take a few days off to recover, but I know that will just lead to more soreness and no weightloss. So I am pushing through the soreness.

My trainer asked if I was having pain and I said no I am just sore. He started laughing at me. I explained to him that pain would mean I needed to see a doctor, but the soreness meaned I was just working on my muscles and getting in shape. He said he liked my attitude.

So even though I am sore I will be getting on my elliptical today and doing at least an hour workout. So the moral of the story is soreness is good. It means you are working those muscles that you have left dormant way too long.

My first goal

I keep being asked what my first weight loss goal is. I know I have a goal to lose at least 50lbs while my husband is deployed, but that is a ways off. So I was thinking what should be my first goal? I could do the 10lb thing, but really I want it to have meaning. So my first goal is to be able to wear my wedding ring again!

I haven;t been able to wear my wedding ring for more then an hour in years. It is a struggle to get my ring on and even worse to try and get it off. I have a pretty and simple ring that I adore because it is from my husband, butit sits in the jewelry box. Everytime I get it on my hands swell so bad I can't get it back off. So for the most part it stays in the jewelry box.

I can't wait til the day I can wear my wedding ring again. I know my husband will love it. So hopefully by the end of the month I will have that baby on my hand. Stay tuned and I will get back to you.